Thank God it is Friday - do we all agree????
Figured I would update this blog. I so suck at it. I find I blog alot more and do things on my facebook account as it is a little more private. But lets see if I can catch up here some too.
I am down to 172 pounds on my Weight Loss. That makes 22 pounds gone and 27 more to go to reach my first goal. Then I will see how I feel and look.
I just had one of the worst weekends of my life. I realized how much I love food. I had to prep for an Endo and a Colonoscopy. My body is in a huge funk lately and they do not know what it is. They have noticed for some reason I can not get my iron up in the normal range. This is even with eating right and on perscription Iron. But I am allergic to one of the combined chemicals in the prep drink. So lucky for me I did not have to gag on that nasty stuff everyone warned me of. But I did have to spend the entire weekend on 3 meals of jello or chicken broth each day. Now add too many laxitives for the clear liquid intake. The topper, toss ontop of that PMS. So come Monday at 1 when they were about to put me to sleep I was one PMSing, angry, sleepy, starving bitch lol.
I guess even under the 'candy' as my dr called the sleeping IV drug, I have a sick sense of humor. The nurses told me afterwards I made the room laugh and told DH what I said. I evidently told my friend who had the kids for us the same thing. I dont remember anything from Monday afternoon till around 6 pm. But there was a student dr in there. Anyone who chooses to be a butt dr is in the right business cause Colon Cancer is on the rise but why..why ..why choose this profession. It can not be pretty. Evidently he introduced himself to me after they gave me the candy and I was in 'High as a Kite Land' and when he asked if I objected to him being there I had my own smart ass reply. I count this one up for waiting till I was drugged to even ask permission. How rude is that? hehe but I told him in what the nurse said was a sweet voice (I assume on the edge of sleep) ":Sure if you get your rocks off looking at my ass then go right ahead" Yep, does that not just scream me? I did not see him again. But I am sure he saw more of me then I cared to.
Kids, they are doing great. Chasen is babbling, knows his ABC and Numbers, animals etc... Man is this so different than what Alex was. At two Alex was non verbal but knew things and was bright. But this verbal puts a new spin on things. Alex is into Space now. He can recite you anything and everything to do with the stars, planets, sun and moon. OMG this kid, he is 5 and above my level. How sad is that. So his room has hanging stars in it and DH bought him a mechanical spinning solar system that is along the stars. This kid amazes me. He is still bloody obsessed with trains of all kinds and just assume ride the go all day. Which on bad days we have done just so I can escape the meltdowns. But this new science kick is amazing to me. He is reading now and into math. He has now decided he wants to tackle small times-tables. He has some of them down. If he learns like he did with addition and subtraction then this kid will be a whiz. He remembers everything.
Move home, were still working on it. We so want to go home. Canada is cool as heck but not home and we feel as if we could do better. Ontario will not account him for his Autism. He is not a Canada Citizen and were on sponsored Visa's for 3 more years. So no resources for him. We pay out of pocket for the one we have but atleast they would take him. We are being picky about the relocation as were not in a major bind to find a job. I pray something opens up soon.
Well my amazing friends I need to clean up the breakfast dishes. We had a PA day today so no school and no resources. Lazy PJ day today. And Monday is the new Family Day Holiday...4 day weekend for us.
Hugs and be good to those you love.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
Monday Check In!
Ok so this is week 2 in telling the world my stats...still a bit sad I let myself go from a size 3, flat chested highschooler to an out of shape mom. But I will have that solved no later than summer time. I am determined.
I have been cutting back since before the holidays but did not become strict with myself till Jan 1. So today officially marks 21 days on this healthy trip I am on. They always say it takes 17 to 20 days to create a habit and I can agree.
I went to the new WallyWorld. It is amazing. Big and Clean, still does not compare to the ones in the states but only because I miss a bit of the goodies from there. I met the manager. He was moved up here from Florida and boy is he getting a rude awakening on Florida weather to Canada. He is a bloody trip. He heard me talking and came over to say hello. He knew my accent- is that not sad? I met the frozen food workers that were on shift. One of them is a huge flirt and took to Chasen. It is amazing how I can speak and I hear ‘Your not Canadian are you’. But it was funny because someone would walk by and you would hear someone say ‘Come listen to her talk’. Who would know redneck language would be famous up here. Was just funny.
But back to the weekly check in and that creating a habit. It must be true as I bypassed all the crappy, bad for you, processed dried foods in a box and hit only the fresh stuff and frozen. I did not think twice about it. So it is getting easier.
Last week I walked my butt off! Lisa and Siobhan have been great listeners and supporters. But I even managed to go the weekend by myself. I am just used to it now. I am actually enjoying it. I put in my earphones and walk till I am ready to call it quits. I have a minimum goal but anything after that is a bonus. I am pleased to say it is my new me time. I bought a monthly membership yday and I go about 5-6 times a week. Loving it!
So yday was my biggest accomplishment on the track. I walked 8.16 km. For us USA peeps that is 5 miles and about 120 yards. I was so pleased. I did it in about an hour and 15 mins. I have to increase the steps or take up jogging to do it better in a shorter time frame. Eventually I want to jog it all but my knee and body is not ready yet.
The weigh in today is as follows: Wgt 178, I lost 4 bloody pounds last week!!! Inches did not drop as much as before and the last measurement was over a 2 week span. But walking builds a little muscle too. But I did loose just a tad. Nothing off my hips for the week but I did loose an inch and half off my tummy. I am pleased!!!
This weeks goals are to add some resistance to my work out. I bought some bands to do that with. I am taking it one week at a time and one pound at a time.
Ok, well I am off to down some water and play with my babies before doing the bands I bought. Tonight is walking again and I am ready to go now.
If you read this, thank you - this helps keep me honest and true to myself as well as on track for my end goal. I want to be under 30 pounds to loose by end of the week.
As always, I dont proof read and I type with the sounds and tugs of 2 kids!
I have been cutting back since before the holidays but did not become strict with myself till Jan 1. So today officially marks 21 days on this healthy trip I am on. They always say it takes 17 to 20 days to create a habit and I can agree.
I went to the new WallyWorld. It is amazing. Big and Clean, still does not compare to the ones in the states but only because I miss a bit of the goodies from there. I met the manager. He was moved up here from Florida and boy is he getting a rude awakening on Florida weather to Canada. He is a bloody trip. He heard me talking and came over to say hello. He knew my accent- is that not sad? I met the frozen food workers that were on shift. One of them is a huge flirt and took to Chasen. It is amazing how I can speak and I hear ‘Your not Canadian are you’. But it was funny because someone would walk by and you would hear someone say ‘Come listen to her talk’. Who would know redneck language would be famous up here. Was just funny.
But back to the weekly check in and that creating a habit. It must be true as I bypassed all the crappy, bad for you, processed dried foods in a box and hit only the fresh stuff and frozen. I did not think twice about it. So it is getting easier.
Last week I walked my butt off! Lisa and Siobhan have been great listeners and supporters. But I even managed to go the weekend by myself. I am just used to it now. I am actually enjoying it. I put in my earphones and walk till I am ready to call it quits. I have a minimum goal but anything after that is a bonus. I am pleased to say it is my new me time. I bought a monthly membership yday and I go about 5-6 times a week. Loving it!
So yday was my biggest accomplishment on the track. I walked 8.16 km. For us USA peeps that is 5 miles and about 120 yards. I was so pleased. I did it in about an hour and 15 mins. I have to increase the steps or take up jogging to do it better in a shorter time frame. Eventually I want to jog it all but my knee and body is not ready yet.
The weigh in today is as follows: Wgt 178, I lost 4 bloody pounds last week!!! Inches did not drop as much as before and the last measurement was over a 2 week span. But walking builds a little muscle too. But I did loose just a tad. Nothing off my hips for the week but I did loose an inch and half off my tummy. I am pleased!!!
This weeks goals are to add some resistance to my work out. I bought some bands to do that with. I am taking it one week at a time and one pound at a time.
Ok, well I am off to down some water and play with my babies before doing the bands I bought. Tonight is walking again and I am ready to go now.
If you read this, thank you - this helps keep me honest and true to myself as well as on track for my end goal. I want to be under 30 pounds to loose by end of the week.
As always, I dont proof read and I type with the sounds and tugs of 2 kids!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
5 inches!
So you ask what is 5 inches, its how much I have lost! I began to cut back in Dec but the holidays really did me in. Truth be known I was homesick and missed seeing loved ones at Christmas. Chasen had a good birthday with just daddy and I but I swear if we ever get near family and friends my boys will have the birthday parties all the other kids get to have. These are regrets I have and they are mounting.
But Jan 1st was my get up and do it day. The time is now and I have got to loose the flab. I found out a good weight and how those calories, carbs and fat counts should be on a daily basis and I have done it. I only had one night that I splurged on a treat but even then I did not eat it all.
I just now got a scale as I was using a measuring tape. Since Saturday I have lost another pound. I know my scale reads 11 pounds less then the drs did in Dec. But truth be known I dont know since all scales are different. But in the 14 days or so I have lost 2 inches off my hips and 3 off my tummy.
My routine is slow going as I did not want to over do it and become another quiter. I refused to pay money to a company to loose weight. Were saving to move. I did not want to do something like the atkins etc and just limit my whole body of needs. So I am balancing more of my foods. I eat with in my intake allowed. Mostly I do special k for breakfast, a decent low cal lunch, 0 fat yogurts and even some of those tasty Weight Watchers treats you can buy for weeks like this (PMS). Hey a girl has her needs lol. I wanted to do the hard part now and that is teaching myself what to eat and not to eat so when the weight is gone I will be used to it. I do know it will be slow, but I will do it.
I am walking 2 miles a day when the track is open to the public and DH is home for the kids. I am abusing the boxing game on the Wii, that will get your heart pumping and a huge sweat. Im drinking the 8 glasses and moving more inbetween workouts I do at home. No food in front of the tv or after dinner. I will do this!!!
I am going this weekend to buy a few cheap pairs of pants to work out in. I measure and weigh in on Mondays and my fingers are crossed!!!!!
Ok, I just wanted to brag!
But Jan 1st was my get up and do it day. The time is now and I have got to loose the flab. I found out a good weight and how those calories, carbs and fat counts should be on a daily basis and I have done it. I only had one night that I splurged on a treat but even then I did not eat it all.
I just now got a scale as I was using a measuring tape. Since Saturday I have lost another pound. I know my scale reads 11 pounds less then the drs did in Dec. But truth be known I dont know since all scales are different. But in the 14 days or so I have lost 2 inches off my hips and 3 off my tummy.
My routine is slow going as I did not want to over do it and become another quiter. I refused to pay money to a company to loose weight. Were saving to move. I did not want to do something like the atkins etc and just limit my whole body of needs. So I am balancing more of my foods. I eat with in my intake allowed. Mostly I do special k for breakfast, a decent low cal lunch, 0 fat yogurts and even some of those tasty Weight Watchers treats you can buy for weeks like this (PMS). Hey a girl has her needs lol. I wanted to do the hard part now and that is teaching myself what to eat and not to eat so when the weight is gone I will be used to it. I do know it will be slow, but I will do it.
I am walking 2 miles a day when the track is open to the public and DH is home for the kids. I am abusing the boxing game on the Wii, that will get your heart pumping and a huge sweat. Im drinking the 8 glasses and moving more inbetween workouts I do at home. No food in front of the tv or after dinner. I will do this!!!
I am going this weekend to buy a few cheap pairs of pants to work out in. I measure and weigh in on Mondays and my fingers are crossed!!!!!
Ok, I just wanted to brag!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Feeling Good
I really can not recall the last time I had a great week. I mean it is all good with your kids but this has been the perfect week for us. I could be better but I am thankful for where I am at.
Chasen has managed all week long now to pretty much sleep the night through. 7:30 is bedtime for both boys and on full time school days its up at 6:30. Other mornings are 7ish or when ever they wake and weekends are the same. I can not complain. The only night we had an issue was the night the winds were clocking high in speed. Chasen has a tree outside his window and the wind kept the limbs hitting it.
My kids are such gems. They are beginning to eat better along with me. More fruits and veggies. Of course I was never one to toss crap together for them every night. If I was not in the mood to cook they still get pancakes or waffles and they love when I put blueberries in it.
Alex had a great transition back into school after the holiday break - good notes every day and even a call from his school on Thursday to praise him. That is my boy!!!!
Chasen is learning that fits are normal for a 2 yr old and its ok if mommy does not give in - tough love! He has been demanding as ever but he is two so he has an excuse lol.
We had Exceptional Resources for Children out the other night. They were really helpful and found ways to help us when other places would not. With in 2 days we had a grant for respite care. 6 hours a week at 18 bucks an hour is not bad. I pick who sits for me and how I do the 6 hours and they make the money. Dennis and I will be back to basics soon on us because we will use most of the time to just be adults. I am so thrilled there.
Dennis is big in the job search and even has his bosses helping him. In the mean time they are trying to come up with an expense plan for us so we can get speech and other resources that Ontario denies us because of Alex not being born here. If it happens we will be able to pay out of pocket on the spot for any need he has and best thing is the money is on top of his pay. They have really stepped up and are trying to help us.
This marks 11 days on my diet. I did not go with a plan to sink $ into. I am counting calories, fat, carbs and more and I am on a strict reduction. I measure again on Monday as I do not have a scale which is prob good. I am the type if I see no improvement I may give up. But as of this past week I lost an inch! Looking forward to Monday to measure again.
I have not had any major challenges yet. I had a piece of cake at a party but worked it off on Sunday and cut the cals to make up for it. Dinner out tonight and pizza tomorrow night but I will do fine. I have been so good today that I can eat ok tonight, just nothing fried and high in carbs. Tomorrow I will eat protein all day as I know pizza is coming. I will do fine as now I am really quite used to this.
I know this is also the first week I have not had a headache and my PMS is not bad either. I cut out alot of junk and sugars and taken better care of myself so I know I am benefitting from this.
Slow and easy and eat right is my goal, so far I am doing good with it and its limits and I do hope to continue. Promise me if I fall off the bandwagon you handslap me ok!!
Alrighty I must run and do some things in the house. Everyone have a great weekend, I know I am :) Excuse any typos as honestly you get what I mean.
Chasen has managed all week long now to pretty much sleep the night through. 7:30 is bedtime for both boys and on full time school days its up at 6:30. Other mornings are 7ish or when ever they wake and weekends are the same. I can not complain. The only night we had an issue was the night the winds were clocking high in speed. Chasen has a tree outside his window and the wind kept the limbs hitting it.
My kids are such gems. They are beginning to eat better along with me. More fruits and veggies. Of course I was never one to toss crap together for them every night. If I was not in the mood to cook they still get pancakes or waffles and they love when I put blueberries in it.
Alex had a great transition back into school after the holiday break - good notes every day and even a call from his school on Thursday to praise him. That is my boy!!!!
Chasen is learning that fits are normal for a 2 yr old and its ok if mommy does not give in - tough love! He has been demanding as ever but he is two so he has an excuse lol.
We had Exceptional Resources for Children out the other night. They were really helpful and found ways to help us when other places would not. With in 2 days we had a grant for respite care. 6 hours a week at 18 bucks an hour is not bad. I pick who sits for me and how I do the 6 hours and they make the money. Dennis and I will be back to basics soon on us because we will use most of the time to just be adults. I am so thrilled there.
Dennis is big in the job search and even has his bosses helping him. In the mean time they are trying to come up with an expense plan for us so we can get speech and other resources that Ontario denies us because of Alex not being born here. If it happens we will be able to pay out of pocket on the spot for any need he has and best thing is the money is on top of his pay. They have really stepped up and are trying to help us.
This marks 11 days on my diet. I did not go with a plan to sink $ into. I am counting calories, fat, carbs and more and I am on a strict reduction. I measure again on Monday as I do not have a scale which is prob good. I am the type if I see no improvement I may give up. But as of this past week I lost an inch! Looking forward to Monday to measure again.
I have not had any major challenges yet. I had a piece of cake at a party but worked it off on Sunday and cut the cals to make up for it. Dinner out tonight and pizza tomorrow night but I will do fine. I have been so good today that I can eat ok tonight, just nothing fried and high in carbs. Tomorrow I will eat protein all day as I know pizza is coming. I will do fine as now I am really quite used to this.
I know this is also the first week I have not had a headache and my PMS is not bad either. I cut out alot of junk and sugars and taken better care of myself so I know I am benefitting from this.
Slow and easy and eat right is my goal, so far I am doing good with it and its limits and I do hope to continue. Promise me if I fall off the bandwagon you handslap me ok!!
Alrighty I must run and do some things in the house. Everyone have a great weekend, I know I am :) Excuse any typos as honestly you get what I mean.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Snow much fun - NOT
Oh where to begin. I just wish life would slow down but I do not think that happens as we grow older. Last week began with a bang with the concert and this week will end with one as well as a friend and I are going to see Hedley and Bon Jovi on Thursday. We have great seats and can not wait to just have a girls night out. This time no heels in the ice!!! I learned!
On Wednesday of last week we found out my hubbys grandfather passed away at the neglect of the nursing home he was in. It is such a sad story. This man had a huge hand in raising my DH and his sister when small. He had been suffering from Alzheimer's for several years. Early this year he closed his eyes to never reopen them. But he lived and seemed healthy other than in his mind.
From what I gathered the nursing home did not take time to feed him or give him fluids. I sense a law suit pending or a settlement at least with this case. He began to run a fever and show signs of an infection the weekend after turkey day but they could not find the infection. So they finally sent him to the hospital, but it was too late.
Long story short his body and the organs were shutting down little by little but not from an infection but from dehydration. They had a huge time gathering blood because of this and his veins were not good. They did began an IV but to our surprise it basically flooded him and his lungs and he drowned to death till his heart stopped. He was in no pain they say and there was no saving him as his body was shut down from neglect.
DH and I wanted to go to the service but mother nature had other plans. They were hit in the states with a winter storm on the day we were to travel and that night here at our home we were hit too. It still is spitting snow off and on but it is pretty.
Chasen was also sick. I took him in Friday to the drs for wheezing again. Bronchitis... YEAH! So yeah Alex was on the mend from croup, Chasen was sick now, snow everywhere and 10 hours on the road did not equal out to a good trip there and a trip home in time for school today.
God Speed GrandPa D!
On Wednesday of last week we found out my hubbys grandfather passed away at the neglect of the nursing home he was in. It is such a sad story. This man had a huge hand in raising my DH and his sister when small. He had been suffering from Alzheimer's for several years. Early this year he closed his eyes to never reopen them. But he lived and seemed healthy other than in his mind.
From what I gathered the nursing home did not take time to feed him or give him fluids. I sense a law suit pending or a settlement at least with this case. He began to run a fever and show signs of an infection the weekend after turkey day but they could not find the infection. So they finally sent him to the hospital, but it was too late.
Long story short his body and the organs were shutting down little by little but not from an infection but from dehydration. They had a huge time gathering blood because of this and his veins were not good. They did began an IV but to our surprise it basically flooded him and his lungs and he drowned to death till his heart stopped. He was in no pain they say and there was no saving him as his body was shut down from neglect.
DH and I wanted to go to the service but mother nature had other plans. They were hit in the states with a winter storm on the day we were to travel and that night here at our home we were hit too. It still is spitting snow off and on but it is pretty.
Chasen was also sick. I took him in Friday to the drs for wheezing again. Bronchitis... YEAH! So yeah Alex was on the mend from croup, Chasen was sick now, snow everywhere and 10 hours on the road did not equal out to a good trip there and a trip home in time for school today.
God Speed GrandPa D!
Pork Chop recipe that the family loved
I tried this recipe the other night.DH loves chops and they are usually a cheap meat to buy around here. With that I am always looking for recipes to make. This one was pretty good. DH loved it. Eldest did too which is strange but we told him it was chicken lol.
1 tsp garlic
1 tsp seasoned salt
2 eggs, beaten
1/4 cup flour
2 cups Italian Bread Crumbs (I flavored my own plain ones)
4 Tablespoons Olive Oil
1 Can of Cream of Mushroom Soup
1/2 cup Milk
1/3 cup of white wine
Preheat oven to 350
Preheat Oil in frying pan over Med-Heat
Rinse chops and pat dry. Season them with the garlic and the salt. Keep the eggs you beat in a small bowl alone.
Dredge the chops lightly in flour, dip into egg to well coat and cover in bread crumbs very well.
Fry chops 5 mins per side or till brown and crusty (this makes the dish so brown those bad boys)
Put into a 13x9 and cover tightly with foil. Bake 35 mins to an hour. I did around 40 as I ran out of time. Somehow the time cooked = tenderness but mine were fine.
Combine soup, milk, wine in a bowl before the time cooking is complete. Pull the chops from the oven and cover with the mixture. Tightly re-foil the pan again and bake 20-30 mins more making sure its bubbly and chops are cooked.
Serve... I put these with rice and roasted veggies with rosemary. Makes a good gravy for the chops and rice.
1 tsp garlic
1 tsp seasoned salt
2 eggs, beaten
1/4 cup flour
2 cups Italian Bread Crumbs (I flavored my own plain ones)
4 Tablespoons Olive Oil
1 Can of Cream of Mushroom Soup
1/2 cup Milk
1/3 cup of white wine
Preheat oven to 350
Preheat Oil in frying pan over Med-Heat
Rinse chops and pat dry. Season them with the garlic and the salt. Keep the eggs you beat in a small bowl alone.
Dredge the chops lightly in flour, dip into egg to well coat and cover in bread crumbs very well.
Fry chops 5 mins per side or till brown and crusty (this makes the dish so brown those bad boys)
Put into a 13x9 and cover tightly with foil. Bake 35 mins to an hour. I did around 40 as I ran out of time. Somehow the time cooked = tenderness but mine were fine.
Combine soup, milk, wine in a bowl before the time cooking is complete. Pull the chops from the oven and cover with the mixture. Tightly re-foil the pan again and bake 20-30 mins more making sure its bubbly and chops are cooked.
Serve... I put these with rice and roasted veggies with rosemary. Makes a good gravy for the chops and rice.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Head is pounding but with good reasons!!
My goodness what an AMAZING night I had last night. I will start by saying this was a great surprise after a rather downer of a week. We could not go home for Thanksgiving last week. Dennis was working and my son had a snow day from school. The first flakes of the year filled my front lawn where my leaves were not all raked up yet. So there was no turkey for me!
Over the weekend I took one of the worlds worst migranes and it floored me. But late in the evening Sunday my sweet hubby surprised me with tickets to Trans-Siberian Orchestra for their concert that was last night. Short notice yeah, but worth it. He set up my very good friend to Lisa to babysit. The night was set!!! God I love him!!!
He gave me a ticket for the train so I went alone and met him downtown in the rain/snow mix. Yuck!! I got all dolled up and we had a good dinner alone with no kids with my man.
The concert was amazing!!!!!!!! I love Trans-Siberian Orchestra and have followed them for a long time. If you have never heard them they are Christmas meets guitars and drums!!! Should check it out!
After the concert we missed the train by like 5 mins (with a ton of other ppl) but during that time we met the band!!!! I got all of their autographs and met them. They are really super nice folks with talent. So missing the train home turned out to be a beautiful thing.
I look forward to seeing them again, whenever that may be.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Month in review
It feels like ages since I last logged on and blogged but really its just been a little while. In that time frame I have accomplished so much that is important to me. DH and I took the kids to my moms and we had a few days alone in the Mountains of North Carolina. We had all intentions is being so romantic and just sleeping if we wish. Naaaa, we hit the floor in the morning looking for new trails and waterfalls to hike. We enjoyed it so much. I hate that there is a serious drought in that area but it made way for us to creep into parts unknown and right in the mist of the waterfalls. Was beautiful. But once back home we got back to reality. I went back on my crusade to get the school to follow through with broken promises and medical requests as well. All my calls have finally paid off. But it took going all the way to the top above the school board to accomplish it. We had a meeting yesterday and we were expecting another fight. No teachers, no nothing. Was the principal of the school and someone from the board of Special Education. We got everything we have asked for to date and what was still lacking will be put in place this week. We go back on the 8th to follow up and trust me I will be lurking.
I am looking more and more forward to moving back to the south. I dont know when it will be but were getting ready to begin our hot and heavy job search after Christmas. When it is meant to be we will move with the right job. Were drawing house plans and making dreams on paper. We already built one house we never had a chance to enjoy once 100% complete. Were done with that. I will post a photo of our picks soon.
Another reason, besides family and my life in the south is so much more meaningful is friendships are so wierd here. I have encountered so many adults here who act like the females I went to school with and honestly, I am done with that. I disliked the cliques and the 'pick me over her' crap in highschool that I dislike it even more now. Sad thing is this is the first time I have encountered it to this level since I graduated. I would not redo highschool for nothing and really I am wondering if the highschool mentality follows some of the troops here. Geeze... I just dont have time.
So yeah, I accomplished what was important, found out who my friends are and learned I have no home in Canada as my heart is not in it. But tomorrow is HALLOWEEN!
Cheers! Another night is done :) Not proof reading so read between the typos :)
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
And the greatest of these is Love!
Ahh one of my more favorite sayings. Is it because of love why we do the things we do as moms? I do believe so. My sweet hubby made a gentle reminder that my eyes were dark and I should get some rest. I have been so consumed with my own goals the past few weeks that even scrapping has been a distant idea. That will change very soon.
I am having such a hard time getting Alexander what he needs. I am currently contacting anyone and everyone who will listen to our story. I know, yes I know - there are thousands of stories in the world so what sets us aside? Well because he is my son and he is Love. That is all I need to keep on trucking.
We still do not have an EA for him at school and I just put in the 999th phone call to the school board. Each time I am becoming a little more assertive as I know school just began. Sad thing is this is his education and it is very important to me to give him what he needs medically. Another problem is the school needs help for him but the board has not granted it yet.
I am inches away from grasping anyone in the Media that will listen. I have hit a major road block and it is very disturbing to me. Alex does not qualify for services here. Funny thing is anyone on the Ontario Insurance is suppose to be able to use resources when needed. I found that loop hole in some agencies.
The problem is Alex was not born in Canada so he does not qualify. We are here legally, we carry all the Ontario benefits our neighbors do. We even pay Ontario taxes to fund these agencies and yet they do not even look at my son.
Medically, I have letters of referrals and recommendations for him. I have a chance at this age and till around 8 to really pull him as much out of his spectrum level as possible. Something to do with this is the catch up years. How can I if no one will help us?
To make matters worse, even the agency who does nothing but create a file and give you community resources would not help us. How sad is that to fail one that needs it???
I am tired, I am drained. I sit hours upon hours writing anyone who will listen. I have called the MPP and more. I am not going to stop fighting for my son. How can I live if 6 years from now he is still at square one and I had the chance as a mom to help him become more?
I have not missed the sleep much because I have not thought of it too much. Now I am lol. Chasen is headed to the dr in a few minutes to see what is up with him. I really think nothing major but he is no Chasen. Last tuesday he woke up at 2 am puking and a fever of 102.3. It responded well and came down with Motrin. No more fever no more pukes. But we have not had a good nights rest out of him since then and last night he just whimpered. Here is well wishes for my babe!
I have to get busy too! Because of LOVE (gee I like that word today) my husband and I are taking our first vacation alone in a decade. We have always saved vacation time for visiting family at the holidays and our own family vacations. We choose to skip Disney this year due to end of the year issues and go away. We have no sitters or anyone so we are taking the boys to my moms and spending 3 days alone in a cabin in the mountains. Nothing major and an hour from my moms just incase but still no children. I wish it were longer but its a 2 day trip there and 2 back. It is the best I can do.
Alrighty, no time for proof reading so ignore the typos. I am going to get Chasen to the clinic as they open in 15 mins and I do not want to wait all morning there. I have more calls to make this afternoon and a WorkShop by the Ontario Autism Society tonight to attend....will be another late night as I have to travel to this one.
Hugs to all my friends! I love all of you!
I am having such a hard time getting Alexander what he needs. I am currently contacting anyone and everyone who will listen to our story. I know, yes I know - there are thousands of stories in the world so what sets us aside? Well because he is my son and he is Love. That is all I need to keep on trucking.
We still do not have an EA for him at school and I just put in the 999th phone call to the school board. Each time I am becoming a little more assertive as I know school just began. Sad thing is this is his education and it is very important to me to give him what he needs medically. Another problem is the school needs help for him but the board has not granted it yet.
I am inches away from grasping anyone in the Media that will listen. I have hit a major road block and it is very disturbing to me. Alex does not qualify for services here. Funny thing is anyone on the Ontario Insurance is suppose to be able to use resources when needed. I found that loop hole in some agencies.
The problem is Alex was not born in Canada so he does not qualify. We are here legally, we carry all the Ontario benefits our neighbors do. We even pay Ontario taxes to fund these agencies and yet they do not even look at my son.
Medically, I have letters of referrals and recommendations for him. I have a chance at this age and till around 8 to really pull him as much out of his spectrum level as possible. Something to do with this is the catch up years. How can I if no one will help us?
To make matters worse, even the agency who does nothing but create a file and give you community resources would not help us. How sad is that to fail one that needs it???
I am tired, I am drained. I sit hours upon hours writing anyone who will listen. I have called the MPP and more. I am not going to stop fighting for my son. How can I live if 6 years from now he is still at square one and I had the chance as a mom to help him become more?
I have not missed the sleep much because I have not thought of it too much. Now I am lol. Chasen is headed to the dr in a few minutes to see what is up with him. I really think nothing major but he is no Chasen. Last tuesday he woke up at 2 am puking and a fever of 102.3. It responded well and came down with Motrin. No more fever no more pukes. But we have not had a good nights rest out of him since then and last night he just whimpered. Here is well wishes for my babe!
I have to get busy too! Because of LOVE (gee I like that word today) my husband and I are taking our first vacation alone in a decade. We have always saved vacation time for visiting family at the holidays and our own family vacations. We choose to skip Disney this year due to end of the year issues and go away. We have no sitters or anyone so we are taking the boys to my moms and spending 3 days alone in a cabin in the mountains. Nothing major and an hour from my moms just incase but still no children. I wish it were longer but its a 2 day trip there and 2 back. It is the best I can do.
Alrighty, no time for proof reading so ignore the typos. I am going to get Chasen to the clinic as they open in 15 mins and I do not want to wait all morning there. I have more calls to make this afternoon and a WorkShop by the Ontario Autism Society tonight to attend....will be another late night as I have to travel to this one.
Hugs to all my friends! I love all of you!
Monday, September 17, 2007
Wonders of Wonderland
The Wonders of Wonderland!
This weekend I went with two other families to Sears Canada Day at Wonderland. I will happily say this will be part of my life in Canada that I will want to remember forever.
When you take 4 boys all the same age + 1 toddler + 3 moms + 2 hubbies = GREAT LAUGHS! We all had so much fun. I really needed out too and this was the time I needed. I am happy to call these two girls two of my best friends in life. Lisa (left) Kimberly (Middle) and me (right) are in this photo that my DH took. I met them through the moms board I help to create a year ago. Now a year later we three run the site. These are those sort of friends who come around because they want to, they dont expect anything of you and they understand what it is like to have a special needs child because they are sitting right next to me on the same bench. I am blessed!
I attended 2 crops last week and got my albums rocking again after a small break. I am going to start hosting some crops and getting out more for my little hobby! Can not wait. I am working on a PJ Crop now. Should be cute.
Well that was our weekend. Just 3 similar families sharing laughs and spinning on teacups!
Friday, September 14, 2007
First Day of School
Where has the time gone? Yesterday, Sept 13th, was Alexander's first day of school. He is in Senior Kindergarten this year. Last year in Jr he did well despite a few road blocks and he was ready to go back to see his friends. I snapped this shot when I asked him if he was ready to see Mrs S, he can not say her name! This was the face I got and I was in laughter when I viewed it on the camera - how fitting? He likes her, or he did last year. Same teacher so that helps with the transition.
I woke him up and he knew it was time. We had been counting sleeps till we go back. We are starting off very rocky already as they do not have resources lined up for him yet and they should by now. I am hearing it is not the teacher or the school but more so the district not having a spare EA (Educational Assistant) for him. Funny thing is he had one last year, no problems. Now that they requested one this year and he has a fitting diagnoses and history they can not seem to get one. It has been a major headache already and mama bird is grinding her teeth getting ready for a final blow. He has to have someone, for many reasons including safety.
He is on early release because he has to be handheld and walked to my car. So I am there prior to the buses with a few other special ed moms. We talk, we chat -nothing like when you are in the pile up with the moms with perfect kids when they frown or half ass nod like your or a lower parenting level when your child comes out in a major meltdown.
I wrote on someones blog this morning, who also had a child with needs to not worry so much about them. That were raising Einsteins - did you know he could not even tie his shoes? Watch out world - here comes Alex!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Candle of the Month
From now till the end of September I am offering the following Candle of the Month at 20% off Retail. For ordering details or to see more products please let me know. Do not forget to go to my site and register for a FREE Candle!
HollyBerry Balsam
Fruit & Spice combine with the fresh forest scent of balsam to bring you this intriguing aroma.
Check back next month for more sales!
Sometimes Simple is Best
Call me crazy but I do like this layout! I am driving myself nuts working on the scrapbook album for Disney. While I am excited we are going to make this a yearly getaway while the kids are small, I am debating just how many photos I make. Dennis bought me a Rebel for our Anniversary this summer. I am still trying to figure out how to do everything it is capable of doing. Surely they could add some more hours to the day? But scrapbooking is what I like to call my Jagged Little Pill. I can have the crappiest of days (which the past week has been crap) and I will go to my room and scrap. Radio turned up, Dennis has the boys or either they are in bed, bottled water and a fattening snack from the candy basket I keep as my sanity treats. Hey, chocolate is a girls best friend, ok well next to a loved hobby. But to me I can go scrapbook and it is like everything else takes a back burner for a while. It is my happy pill in glue and paper form! I have been trying to come up with changing my style around when I scrap and catching up to the latest trends. But I created this layout and I was just happy! Because sometimes Simple really is the Best way to go. If only life were that simple?
Monday, September 10, 2007
Do you remember? I do!
6 years ago I was doing my normal thing. Getting up, combing my hair and heading to run my errands. I would take my ferret Casper to the vet and find out his fate was sealed in the very near future. But also that very same day the sights in my home town were like something I have never seen before. When I came out from the vets office in tears myself I notice how hectic things became while I was inside with Casper. You see, at that time I lived among several Military Bases in North Carolina. It was nothing to see different branches of the Military out running, doing errands or driving their transport vehicles from North Carolina to Virginia. I was all about 2 hours south or so from the Pentagon.
I could not get over all the buzz around town. Military Personnel everywhere, even convoys of transportation beginning to group together. The relaxed training look that I was familiar with had disappeared. On a few faces screamed of rage, anger and even some I can still see today as scared. Images I will forever take with me because that was the last time I would see these unknown faces. I do not know if they are alive even today.
Gas stations were lined up to the hills, people huddled around talking. I just did not know what was going on. I called my husband on the cell phone and told him what I was seeing. I truly did not know, that is till he asked me if I had the radio on. No, I did not. I came out of the vets office upset and the radio was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I turned it on and was horrified at what I was hearing. I knew then and there when they were speculating what happened to the towers that it was serious because just in those moments since the planes hit the placeI live in was all a buzz!
It hit our area hard. We were actually told to stay off roads and places were closed by lunch time. They did road blocks and cops with sirens went up and down the road reminding us to stay in. It was not that we were in close danger but right in our town ran the main interstate that connected all the bases directly to the Pentagon. They did not want to hinder what was going to take place. It was a site to see all the Military getting things together before the towers even fell. My heart knew it was going to be bad, very bad.
I turned on my tv and sat like most of the world in tears and disbelief. I remember it all so clearly, all of the images and everything I have scrapbooked for my children, the news - everything is part of me today. I will never ever forget feeling limp and sitting down on my couch just as the tower fell. In an instant the trapped and the living took their last breath. My soul felt heavy - I knew.
I hurt for people I knew who were going to war, I hurt for their families in our area. I cried for the widows and the children who were left to rise in a world where what had fallen had taken a parent -or two. Sisters, brothers, moms, aunts, dads, uncles, cousins all became an instant family even though all I knew was the image of their poster being shown and saying 'Missing'.
6 years later the images have faded and argument has taken place on the real reason it happened. While it does matter, we can not disrespect those who had fallen. No matter if they were heros who died saving lives or a stock broker on floor 97, even the window washer who perished helping others.....it does not matter, they all deserve our respect. Their families deserve it.
I, like you, was able to wake this morning and hopefully will do so all week long as the reminders flood our homes of what seemed like yesterday but is infact ..History now. Those images, the faces and people are burned into history forever. I got out my albums today. I have every soul documented who perished. I have books, magazines, my own albums in my home. I want my children to know History can make you stronger even in disbelief and sorrow.
As most of us still are trying to comprehend how thousands of people died in a single cloud of smoke the reality is some have forgotten what happened that day. Do not become to wrapped up in the politics this week. I know there are many theories floating around right now. If, for just one day - September 11th, remember what started out as a beautiful sunny morning quickly ended in a black dust that kept those lovely people from going home that very same beautiful night. The sun was still bright, the clouds were brilliant. The tears wept and the things you and I take for granted now were taken away in just a moments time.
I sit with my husband and my family at night. No one knows what tomorrow will bring. Say I love you, hug your family and friends tight, dismiss any ill thoughts - because where you are happily sitting next to your loved one another one is crying in pain because they can still remember that fleeting moment that they felt their loved ones pass through them as if to give them - one last touch.
I enclosed a photo that I got in an email. I can not take credit for it nor do I know where it came from. As an American, as a Human - I respect and see more to that photo than anyone who only gives in a 2 second glance.
I could not get over all the buzz around town. Military Personnel everywhere, even convoys of transportation beginning to group together. The relaxed training look that I was familiar with had disappeared. On a few faces screamed of rage, anger and even some I can still see today as scared. Images I will forever take with me because that was the last time I would see these unknown faces. I do not know if they are alive even today.
Gas stations were lined up to the hills, people huddled around talking. I just did not know what was going on. I called my husband on the cell phone and told him what I was seeing. I truly did not know, that is till he asked me if I had the radio on. No, I did not. I came out of the vets office upset and the radio was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I turned it on and was horrified at what I was hearing. I knew then and there when they were speculating what happened to the towers that it was serious because just in those moments since the planes hit the placeI live in was all a buzz!
It hit our area hard. We were actually told to stay off roads and places were closed by lunch time. They did road blocks and cops with sirens went up and down the road reminding us to stay in. It was not that we were in close danger but right in our town ran the main interstate that connected all the bases directly to the Pentagon. They did not want to hinder what was going to take place. It was a site to see all the Military getting things together before the towers even fell. My heart knew it was going to be bad, very bad.
I turned on my tv and sat like most of the world in tears and disbelief. I remember it all so clearly, all of the images and everything I have scrapbooked for my children, the news - everything is part of me today. I will never ever forget feeling limp and sitting down on my couch just as the tower fell. In an instant the trapped and the living took their last breath. My soul felt heavy - I knew.
I hurt for people I knew who were going to war, I hurt for their families in our area. I cried for the widows and the children who were left to rise in a world where what had fallen had taken a parent -or two. Sisters, brothers, moms, aunts, dads, uncles, cousins all became an instant family even though all I knew was the image of their poster being shown and saying 'Missing'.
6 years later the images have faded and argument has taken place on the real reason it happened. While it does matter, we can not disrespect those who had fallen. No matter if they were heros who died saving lives or a stock broker on floor 97, even the window washer who perished helping others.....it does not matter, they all deserve our respect. Their families deserve it.
I, like you, was able to wake this morning and hopefully will do so all week long as the reminders flood our homes of what seemed like yesterday but is infact ..History now. Those images, the faces and people are burned into history forever. I got out my albums today. I have every soul documented who perished. I have books, magazines, my own albums in my home. I want my children to know History can make you stronger even in disbelief and sorrow.
As most of us still are trying to comprehend how thousands of people died in a single cloud of smoke the reality is some have forgotten what happened that day. Do not become to wrapped up in the politics this week. I know there are many theories floating around right now. If, for just one day - September 11th, remember what started out as a beautiful sunny morning quickly ended in a black dust that kept those lovely people from going home that very same beautiful night. The sun was still bright, the clouds were brilliant. The tears wept and the things you and I take for granted now were taken away in just a moments time.
I sit with my husband and my family at night. No one knows what tomorrow will bring. Say I love you, hug your family and friends tight, dismiss any ill thoughts - because where you are happily sitting next to your loved one another one is crying in pain because they can still remember that fleeting moment that they felt their loved ones pass through them as if to give them - one last touch.
I enclosed a photo that I got in an email. I can not take credit for it nor do I know where it came from. As an American, as a Human - I respect and see more to that photo than anyone who only gives in a 2 second glance.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Yes I am on Facebook
And NO you can not poke me! Let me know you are looking for me and I will add you to my friends list.
Goodbye to Summer!
We have had a wonderful summer this year. I regret not keeping up with the blog but we have been really busy with losts of traveling and just being family.
Before school ended we were given the diagnoses for my son that we knew would come. It has been a good 3 to 4 years coming as I knew all along in my heart. We did confirm that he is Autistic. But let me tell you one thing....I would not change my son for anything in the world. He has opened my eyes to the wonderful world of childhood. Sure he has his issues but I can at any given time see what he does through his eyes and that makes me a better person and mother to him.
After school ended we spent a while in SC at my parents. Oh the fun! Carowinds, Chuck E Cheese (better pronouced as Chunks & Cheese by my 4 yr old). We had sprinkler fun and just enjoyed life. Life is too short to debate and worry over the small things. This summer has been a great one for making me whole and to be a child again.
We went to MarineLand a couple of times, we saw lots of family, the zoo! Wow we have just been busy but once again the leaves are changing and here comes fall so it means it is time to settle down. I do love Sept-December as those months have a certain glow and magic to them. No matter the reasons or locations family comes together. Besides sweaters and jeans are much nicer for a crisp night then sweating in the heat.
Alex goes back to school this Thursday. He will be in Senior Kindergarten. Luckily, he will have the same teacher so that clears one more transition for us. Chasen is right on his big brothers heels with the growing.
Too look at me you see 2 kids fairly close in age, but they are really different. At this age Chasen is talking and eating, is pretty healthy....I wonder and feel we may skip the Autism Diagnosis with him as his path of development seems to be different. Time will tell.
I am going to start this blog back up and even try and post some scrapbooking goodies. I hope to rekindle communication among my many peers I have lost over the last few moves.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Mia Bella Scent-Sations, Inc.
I found this company while visiting my Mother In Laws while we were on Easter Break. She had these melts burning in a warmer that were DELICIOUS! You could smell the Hot Apple Pie Baking from the basement, in the bedrooms and any corner of her home you were in. It was amazing. I have never had a melt that floated through the house this way and it did not knock you over with being over powerful. With her help I checked into ordering some. I found out it was just as easy to sign up with the company then it was to order outright. No quotas or anything to pressure you. I like that! I can sell online to anyone in the states and here in Canada. Better yet when we move with in a year to the south, I can take the job with me. So you are not looking at Consultant Number 20723 for Mia Bella Scent-Sations, Inc.
They drop ship to your home address for ease. If you would want to order any of these wonderful products or check them out please check out my website at http://www.kdonathen.scent-team.com/ any questions please email me.
Thank You!
They drop ship to your home address for ease. If you would want to order any of these wonderful products or check them out please check out my website at http://www.kdonathen.scent-team.com/ any questions please email me.
Thank You!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Spring Photo Session
Boy am I glad it is over. We took the boys yesterday to have their spring photos made. We dressed them in crisp white dress shirts and jeans. We had their hair combed and faces clean. It did not last!
Getting photos made of the boys is hard as heck. I do not have one photo since birth that Chasen has not been crying in. He could care less of a stranger playing peek a boo or making a silly noise so he can pose for the camera. He hates it! He will lower his little head and just bust out like his heart is broken. Chasen dislikes anyone talking to him that close or touching him and he does not know them. This time was no exception.
Alex of course loves a camera. We had several of those forced 4 yr old grins that looks like he is in pain and he is posing. The one of them together was a fun one to get. It was the first one we did and wow it took forever. Alex was all into laughing because if he posed the puppy she had would poot. Go figure! Sitting Chasen in his lap was the beginning of war war 3. Chasen wanted to lean into Alex and wrestle while Alex did nothing but try an squeeze the life out of Chasen. They would melt to the table in a pile of body heat in pure laughter.
So here are the photos. Not a hair in place any longer, shirts all out of sorts, tears here and there but they are my boys and we were glad to get what we did!
Getting photos made of the boys is hard as heck. I do not have one photo since birth that Chasen has not been crying in. He could care less of a stranger playing peek a boo or making a silly noise so he can pose for the camera. He hates it! He will lower his little head and just bust out like his heart is broken. Chasen dislikes anyone talking to him that close or touching him and he does not know them. This time was no exception.
Alex of course loves a camera. We had several of those forced 4 yr old grins that looks like he is in pain and he is posing. The one of them together was a fun one to get. It was the first one we did and wow it took forever. Alex was all into laughing because if he posed the puppy she had would poot. Go figure! Sitting Chasen in his lap was the beginning of war war 3. Chasen wanted to lean into Alex and wrestle while Alex did nothing but try an squeeze the life out of Chasen. They would melt to the table in a pile of body heat in pure laughter.
So here are the photos. Not a hair in place any longer, shirts all out of sorts, tears here and there but they are my boys and we were glad to get what we did!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
"Mommy you puke like Casey"
Geee out of the mouth of babes! Alexander informed me yesterday that I was doing just like a classmate. He stormed into the restroom asking ' Are you ok?' How do you answer a 4 year old when your hung over the john? Sure Honey Mommy is Dandy!
I am certain Alexander brought this bug home from school to us. How thoughtful it is to share germs. :) He was not himself on Thursday but never threw up. He had some other issues but I assumed it was from his emotional day and from his asthma attack he has earlier. But Chasen woke up Saturday morning with it and it was nasty. Since Chasen clings to me and shares such wet kisses I was next. All that is left is for Dennis to catch it.
What a great welcome home gift to daddy huh? Coming home with gifts for everyone and were all sick. Chasen is still laying around and acting all tired. I do not think he is quite 100% yet.
So here is to a great March Spring Break! No school, but we kicked it off sick with a virus - from Casey!
I am certain Alexander brought this bug home from school to us. How thoughtful it is to share germs. :) He was not himself on Thursday but never threw up. He had some other issues but I assumed it was from his emotional day and from his asthma attack he has earlier. But Chasen woke up Saturday morning with it and it was nasty. Since Chasen clings to me and shares such wet kisses I was next. All that is left is for Dennis to catch it.
What a great welcome home gift to daddy huh? Coming home with gifts for everyone and were all sick. Chasen is still laying around and acting all tired. I do not think he is quite 100% yet.
So here is to a great March Spring Break! No school, but we kicked it off sick with a virus - from Casey!
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